Saturday, March 05, 2011

@ 9:04 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE!

So fast it march already?! OMG!! that means i have less then half a year to study for my N level? OMG! I have no faith sia! scared that i will disappointed my family.... Haiz... Maybe towards others, i may look like very slack and like that kind hack care for my N level like that but you are wrong! The only thing that i am doing this is because that i am afraid! I can't get through the guan ka in my life.. I saw ppl working so hard for N level but i am like doing nothing. I tried to do so but....i can't! I tried to understand and ask. But in the end... i still cannot get wad i want. Really hate the life i am having now! Why all of my family members can get good result and i can't. My parents hope that i can get into poly but i aim myself for ITE. Why am i doing this?! I myself also dunnoe! I really hope to get into poly! But the only thing is that my brian is not working! I really tried to go out studying with my friends, but...i can't concentrate! Their result is far better then me and i think that why ppl in the same class can do it and i can't? Why must i always be the one lacking behind? Why can't i pull the distance in between us near? Never knew that I have been writing this in my blog... Maybe is coz no one will ever look at my blog so i dare to write it.. Never wanted to tell ppl this coz they will sure say then you study now la! I wanted to! But i really can't! Wad you guys want me to do? I really wanted to get good result to show my parents that i can do it ma. Who dun want to show their parents the best? Should stop being emo today as I am having a quite good mood today? Next time want to bad mouth me, please do it in front of me! Dun say it behind me! Maybe you like doing so but let me tell this ppl, stop doing this! One day you will get it too! Dun expect me to help you anything when you are doing this to me! And i am sure one day, everything will get back to you and you will regret doing this to me!

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