Monday, November 02, 2009

@ 3:17 PM

long time never post liao sian holiday start liao at home dunnoe do wad than dunnoe when still need to go back sch for cca sian la nothing to do hiaz why am i so hard to get close to ppl and i feel like going to mad soon and next year go different class with friend dunnoe wad to do?????wad can i really do to get this friendship do why ppl pnly treat me like i only help them to find song and things and dun really treat me as friend wad are true friends?????how can ppl trust them????how they trust this friendship????wad can i do to have the same result as them????why is friendship more pain than loving so one????to lovers they have a thing they normally say tat is 8 words 3 words 1 meaning than wad abt friendship???wad can they say abt that???ppl do different thing to hurt me why i dunnoe and still treat them so good it feels like i help them in the end the stab me in my back and i still dunnoe.......wad really must i do to have wad ppl have de friendship???have i change???friends say tat i change liao....but i feel tat they change more than me but why when they ask me i cannot say out??????just wad am i afraid of?????being hurt?????lose my friends or wad???????who can tell me???my heart is really very pain but who knowns???only myself and my heart know....i feel very pain in my heart wad can i do???and why am i hiding from myself???am i scared???why is friendship sounds so easy to others but not towards ma and my friends??but towards her friend and herself why must i keep using helping them to find song and keep on the friendship???FROM TODAY ONWARDS I WILL NEVER HELP OTHERS TO FIND SONG ONLY MYSELF and this is the only way to not hurt myself.......this few days maybe will be posting and maybe not see first bye!!!!!!!!!

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